The Beginning of Aiden's NICU Story!

It's been a long time since I have wrote on my blog so i've deiced to start a new blog! I have been really feeling like sharing my story about our whole NICU experience with Aiden. I have had a lot of people ask about it and ask how i was able to go through that trial in my life.  So i'm going to start from the very beginning of it all! This won't be the only post. It will be in a couple posts! 
I was sick for the first couple months of being pregnant. Once I moved back up to Utah I seemed to have gotten so much better. I had so much energy and ate really well. I finally felt like myself again. A lot of that could be I was in my home town and I wasn't depressed anymore. When we lived in Arizona it was really hard for me to adjust. It was a small town and i didn't know many people. It was hard to adjust to a small town life and being so far away from my family. I never lived that far from my family before and it was a huge struggle of mine. So that could have been a big reason why i felt so much better once i came back to Utah.
We finally were able to move into our Apartment the end of March.It was so nice to be able to start putting Aiden's Room together. I deiced to have my baby shower early because our family from Arizona was going to be in Utah so i thought it was the prefect time. We had my Shower on March 30th so i was about 29 weeks so we did it really early. It was a blast!! It was so much fun to have my whole family there!
I remember the night before I had Aiden. I started having braxton hicks around 8pm the night of April 16th. They were really uncomfortable but nothing bad. they came every couple hours. I remember I asked for a blessing. Brock gave me a blessing around 10pm. In the blessing it said Aiden was okay and that he wasn't ready to come yet and that everything was okay. (not exactly in those words but something like that) So i went stayed up for a little while reading my book. I had a couple more braxton hicks but nothing serious. Then around 5am they started to get bad. they happened way more often. I had Brock give me another blessing because my contractions were way too close for comfort.  I wasn't in too much pain at this point but It was really uncomfortable. In the blessing he said things are going to be okay but he couldn't even finish the blessing without saying "get up lets go we NEED to go to the hospital" he was in panic mood. At this point I was scared. I didn't want to go. I kept saying no i'm not going. I was really scared something was wrong. So all the way to hospital i was in so much pain. my contractions were about 4 min apart. It felt like the longest 10 min to the hospital. We got to the hospital around 7ish. They helped me right away. I got a shot to calm my contractions because I was only barley 32 week's pregnant. I HATED that shot!! I felt like i was gonna go for a run. my heart was racing so fast! I got really hot and so uncomfortable. But it did help with my contractions.  My parents were up with us at the hospital. I thought i'd just sit there for awhile then go home!  Oh no that was not the case at ALL!!!! The nurse needed to check to see how dilated i was. (that hurt worse then any contraction i had up to this point) She was having  a hard time figuring it out so she had the head nurse come in and try to figure it out. I remember her being amazing and just talking me through what she was doing. the 2 nurses were great in helping me. I remember seeing her face when she checked to see how dilated i was in pure worry. She said "hun your dilated to a 8, we need to call your dr right now you are having this baby there is no stopping him he is coming fast" In the moment I felt so scared! I started crying really hard just saying "i can't do this, its not time yet, he is so early" I was so scared he wouldn't make it. I had a million things running through my head at this point. Probably the worst possible things went through my head at this point. I was FREAKING OUT!!!!  I asked the nurse If my dad and Husband could give me a blessing and she said "yes please do, that would be a great Idea" She gave us some privacy and my dad and Brock gave me such a strong blessing! I calmed down instantly. I just knew at this point that this was what needed to happen and that our little baby would be perfect and he would okay! I felt so calm! I was ready! So we got sent back into my room where my dr would meet us and get me all set up. We called our family to tell them the news. It took us like a half hour to get a hold of anyone!! I thought for sure I wasn't gonna be able to get a epidural. But i got really lucky that the dr was right there ready for me. I was scared of the epidural before but i didn't feel a thing and i was really grateful! I got my epidural around 8ish. I remember so many nurses and drs coming in to tell me about having a preemie. They had the NICU nurses all ready for him!  i was told so many things. It kinda all went over my head. I do remember being so calm i was gonna fall asleep I was just calm and relaxed. Everyone kept telling me. "its gonna be okay, it will be a really long road but Aiden will be just fine" I believed every word they said! I just knew he was in good hands! It was about 830 and my dr broke my water and a half hour later Aiden was ready! 

 So I got willed back into my room, hugged my mom and went back! In that moment of hugging my mom I was so happy she was there! It was kinda like a special moment for me. It was like here she taught me so many things in my life and she taught me how to be a great daughter of god and to be a good wife. and now i'm having a baby and I'm finally able to show her how much she has taught me. I was grateful for that moment. I was back in my room and i pushed for a half hour and then Aiden was here!

 Aiden was born at 9:31 am! He was 4 lbs 5oz and 16 inches long! He was prefect! They showed me him for a second then rushed him to the NICU. Brock was able to go back with them and watch him! He had to get so many different tubes and things put on. It was test after test. I started crying once i saw him. He came out screaming! It was the best little noise in the whole world! I went back into my room and started bawling. Not of sadness or worry but of pure joy! I just brought a beautiful baby boy into this world! My epidural wore off really soon and i was able to walk within like a hour after having him. All I wanted to do was hold my baby.  This was a hard rest of the day. I wasn't able to hold him for 12 hours I was only allowed to touch him! Which was so great even though It was really hard. the hardest part about all of this was going back into my room without him :( All our family came up to visit and it brought a lot of comfort to us. Even though it was really hard because no one was able to see Aiden. It was rsv season so only 4 people could be on the list. I am so grateful for my family coming up to see me that day! It helped me in more ways they even know! It was finally time to hold my baby. I was so excited!! They brought a wheelchair in but i wanted to walk down there. they made me sit in it. lol oh well! He was so perfect. I cried the second they set him on me!! It was the greatest moment! I wanted to stay in that moment forever!

 Once every one left for the day and it was night time thats when it all hit me! I AM A MOM!!! It was a long night But around 9pm I was finally able to hold my baby boy!  Luckily the nurses didn't bother me too much because Aiden wasn't in the room with us. I will continue the rest of my story on the next post!